I want to share these two articles I wrote a month ago on Facebook to share with you about my food and weight journey..
1. Confessing Food Freedom
Last month I was asked few times " So, what diet are you on? "
In Japanese, if you say you are on a diet it means you are trying to loose weight.
Well my dictionary here tells me that diet in English means " the food that you eat and drink regularly. "
So I thought, well to answer that question I'll have to make a looooong list cause I eat all sorts of foods. Haha
But I understand what they mean when they ask that question. And I just thought .. well I'm Paleo, Vegan, Omnivore, Keto, Sugar free, Dairy free, Gluten free, Trim healthy mama, Fast food .. pretty much everything!!
Because some of my meals has no meat like my breakfasts, and sometimes I eat sugar but sometimes I'm sugar free, sometimes I eat McDonald's but I also love eating a yummy seafood dinner at a nice restaurant, sometimes I try gluten free baking but I also love eating good pies at a pie shop.
I try to buy good quality fresh foods for us and cook fresh meals for my husband. I try to add veggies in my lunch and dinner. I don't like having just salad for a meal because it's boring to me even if I did add some protein like chicken, tuna etc. I just need some carbs. I love eating carbs with everything! lol
I love trying different types of breads like Nan, flat bread, Focaccia, etc Because I've never seen such variations of breads in Japan like here in America. It's quiet new and exciting to me!!
There's two things that I'm mindful of with my diet.
1, I try to cut out sugar as much as possible cause it gives me headaches and pimples. Thankful for sugar substitute THM products!! With Gentle sweet, Super sweet blend and stevia I can make desserts and drinks as sweet as I want without worrying!
2, I've been doing 95% dairy free lifestyle to help with the digestion issues I had for a very long time and it has been almost a month and I'm feeling absolutely amazing. Going dairy free honestly changed my life! I eat ice cream EVERY NIGHT. No kidding. I didn't have to stop eating ice cream when I started dairy free cause thankfully Halo Top has Dairy Free ice creams! Woohooo! I recently found my new favorite flavor, Toasted Coconut! Give it a try if you love coconut, it's amazing.
I have freedom. I think I'll call my diet freedom diet cause I don't worry anymore. Yes I probably lack some nutrients here and there, I don't do perfectly perfect with eating enough food sometimes and eating too much desserts and snacks, I enjoy studying about nutrition and body but I'm not obsessed.
My mind is set free.
I just enjoy the blessings from the Lord. I've learnt to receive and enjoy food with a thankful heart. I'm thankful for my husband who provides, let's me be creative and have some fun in the kitchen.
God has taught me a lesson and He's so good.
- Scriptures -
Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and you will delight in the richest of fare. ~ Isiah 55:2
Taste and see that the LORD is good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him! Psalms 34:8
You will enjoy the fruit of your labor. How joyful and prosperous you will be! Psalms 128:2
2. Weight! Body Image! Struggle!
The fact is, Up to 10 million girls and women in the United States suffer from diagnosed eating disorders. Of these, at least 50,000 will die as a direct result. Isn't this crazy?
The author of " You are not what you weigh " Lisa Bevere says, "Your present outward condition reflects a deeper inner turmoil. This captivity did not start on your exterior frame. It began in secret, deep within, and it has worked its destruction FROM THE INSIDE OUT. "
I confess I've been suffering eating disorder for awhile and I'll tell people I'm getting better, I'm working on putting some weight on, there's nothing you need to worry about .. but in my rebellious mind there's millions of voices that tells me, I actually don't want to change, I'm happy the way I am, why do I need change?, I wish people will stop telling me how to eat and what to eat, I'm so healthy! I want to eat what I want to eat, I'm an adult so I don't need to be told about food, There's so many women out there who are my size so why do I need to gain weight went they don't?, I wish I had their freedom about eating, weight is not a big deal .. these thoughts can go on and on.
And then I find myself feeling fearful when I get on the scale, and ashamed for not eating when I actually want to and sad when my favorite pants falls down from my hips.. When my life got out of control, as anger, sadness and jealousy fired up in my soul, food was the only thing that I could control in life. By controlling my eating habits I felt comfort, peace and like I had everything in order. No mess. No chaos. Perfection. On the outside everything seemed good while I was getting eaten by this disease from the inside.
Until my loved ones told me about my weight I didn't realize I was actually killing myself! I was killing my muscles, reproductive system, bones, my body that does not belong to me.
This body belongs to Christ Jesus my Savior and my Husband. I do not own it as the bible says my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. ( 1 Cor. 6:19 )
Jesus answered, " I am the way and the truth and the life. " ( John 14:6 )
His way is life. So simple.
- Kahoru Aliisa Barrett
My nightly ice cream treat in a gluten free ice cream cone! YUM!!!
Kahoru Aliisa Barrett.
Half Japanese, half Australian. Grew up in Japan most of my life and lived on the Gold Coast, AUS for few years.
Blessed with 11 younger brothers and sisters.
Married to a wonderful godly man and living in the pretty woods of Tennessee, USA!
Love baking, Eating desserts, Mexican food, Swimming, Exploring nature, Hiking, Biking, Cross stitching, Reading novels, Photography.
Currently obsessed with trying out new dairy free products / making dairy free meals and desserts!